I just celebrated my 55th birthday. Birthdays are a great time to look back and reassess. They are also a great time to look forward to the future. I had an opportunity to do just that over the last couple of days.
A couple of days before my birthday a few years ago, I stumbled (literally) across some pictures in my basement. Some of the pictures were taken more than thirty years ago. I even found a pic when I was pregnant with my now 37+ year old daughter, Kathie. Oh so young and so not having the slightest clue! The batch also included pictures of my great-grandmother, my grandparents and my dad. My dear loved ones are all now in the presence of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Looking back at old pictures of myself gave me reason to pause, stare and ponder. I wondered: How old was I? What was I dealing with back then? Where was my life headed? Did I have a clue? What dreams did I have for myself? For my family? Each picture was very revealing. They spoke a thousand words to me. As I stared at some of the pics, I remembered that I was thinking–“I don’t see how the future can hold anything different from the pain I feel right now. This is an endless pit.” aaah, But God…He is faithful. While I had a picture of my future, He knew the path that He laid out for me. He knew the years I had to carry out His will and the legacy I would leave behind to carry on that work. Psalm 139 reminds me of this amazing truth:
For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your Book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when there were none of them yet. How precious also are Your thoughts to me O God! (Psalm 139: 13-17a, KJV, Italics Mine)
When I dare to look through the looking-glass, I am acutely aware that He has walked with me every step of the way. He created a picture for my life long before anyone could snap one. He knew who I would become. My future is not a mystery to Him. He knows how many years I have to do His will. I don’t want to waste any of them. He knew my ups and downs, my ins and outs. Placing my faith in the shed blood of Christ created a new picture. One of purpose and hope, promise and passion. Happy Birthday to me. He’s blessed me to see another one. Now, that’s a picture I always want in the forefront of my mind.
Read Psalm 139 and reflect on it. Journal what God is saying to you about you.
Through The Looking Glass:
+ Did the pictures you had of your future turn out the way you hoped it would?
+Did your life so far turn out better than your dreams or has it been a huge disappointment? Why or why not?
+Is it possible to recognize that there are no accidents or coincidences in our lives? Nothing that’s happened in our lives will ever be wasted. Do you believe that?